The reason why...

The reason why I don't want to say 'WE' should do this this this 

is cause I don't want to let you down if I know I can't make it.

The reason why I don't want to keep saying 

'You're irritating but I love you'

is cause I don't want you to be dependent on it

cause one day I may not BE ABLE to say it to you

and that would make me sad.

The reason why I want you to change 

is cause I know that in the REAL world

it is very difficult for people to understand you

the way I do.

I do accept you

Your flaws

Your insecurities

Your everything that makes you

YOU.

But you can't keep falling back on them

You can't keep being upset and emotionally weak

It's never going to make you strong.

I know that I can't be there for you in the future
(THAT DOESN'T MEANT THAT WE WILL PART WAYS AH!!)

That's why I want you to be strong now

So that you won't need me

 So that you would be in control of yourself

Independent

I don't want to say things or make promises to you

and end up not fulfilling them

And end up making you upset

The reason why I keep asking you about your financial status 

is cause I care about you not eating

I understand how it is like to see your friends eat and you not eating
And the most important things I care about is

1. If you had sufficient sleep
2. If you filled your stomach with food so you go hungry
3. If you got enough money for transport.

That's all the MAIN criteria.

I know I can be such a nag
But I always hope that whatever I say
you would remember

Cause most of the times.
Those things are the stepping stones to living in the real world.

That's all.
For now..
Take care.