1 Year, 11 months.

Today is the day that marks our 

1 year and 11 months.

23 months.

713 days.

I love you.

Pre Birthday and Epic Moments

Okay so here it goes, my baby's birthday is tomorrow, and I am like doing things last minute as usual. Well, I met Nina, Fafa and Haru (I think that is how his name is spelled), and we practiced our songs, and I am getting into the groove of it.. We went to City Hall's Underground, but there was zeero internet connection, and we didn't have lyrics so we couldn't exactly practiced, so we went to the Memorial Park, and after 1 song it started raining.. Irritating right??!! Then we went inside this place, you know City Hall when you go HMV? Then there is this glass stairs leading up? Well, if you followed the music, we were practicing up there, and it was so echo-y and people were like, where is the beautiful singing and music coming from. hahahaa!

So right... It was fuckinggg hott!!!! Like really!!! Fucking Hott!!!!! I sing my song halfway I sweat already!!! So we went back to the underground and there were like alott of people, but we didn't give a shit lah.. Finished practicing, we went to Somerset cause I needed to go to Cineleisure to get Baby's Pressie!! Sooo... We went to Somerset, Me, Nina, Fafa then we went to New Look to try out shoes and wait for Firmi, and there was this pair of shoes soooo uber gorgeous...!!! But my toes can't fit.. Sad.. Anyways, when Firmi came, we went to buy bulle tea and Nina and Firmi went to get SuperDog's Ice Cream and I sear it taste like Sex!

It was sooo freagginggg good!!!!!!! I swear!!! AND IT COSTS 1 DOLLAR! AND SO BIG SOMEMORE! Soooooo we went Cine, went into the shop, got the top, wanted to pay for it, butttt, I brought out $45, the top costs $41 after 40% discount, then I changed 5 $2 with Firmi, cause like make it look nicer when you paying mahsss..., but then when I wanted to pay I saw in my hands like, 'Eh? How come only got 31???' Then aku like tak panick, Nina being the sweetheart, loan me $7, and Firmi $5, so I paid then wanted to go off, Fafa was like, ' what is that $10 under your feet?' hahahahahaahah!!!!!

I guess I got carried away with changing money I didnt see it dropped.. Luckily no one took it. HHaha... guess that is all I have to say for now!

Ciao :)

The Memories, part 1

When I first laid my eyes on you,

you looked so afraid, so self-conscious, so lonely.

I didn't care about you.

I made fun of you when others did.

To me, you were never important.

 

Happy 1yr 10 mths

Happy anniversary baby.. even though I am so sick, you still took care of me, and I am really happy. I love you so much baby..

To Shaheerah

Dearest Shaheerah,

there is so many things I want to say to you.

 But it does not matter anymore.

I am moving on.

Goodbye.

Things you do and say

You fetch me home most of the time, even though you are tired, you still do, and l love you for that, but when we fight, you think you can just leave me alone, stranded, so what is the pont of sending me back when you can leave me so easily?

I'd rather not go out with you anymore, because you are just like my ex, when we broke up, he wanted his money back, and you did exactly  the same, you asked for your money back, perhaps you should just be with someone who can sustain herself, someone who is not useless like me, who depends on her parents allowance to eat.

You want me to have more money,  I want  to work but you don't want me to, so how can I not depend on you?You yourself said you will support me, and yet you go back on your words.

I don't know what you want anymore.

I
I

Sleeping with tears

When you left me this cold morning, I went to the window and I saw you walking to catch a cab. I suddenly felt so empty. I missed your company so badly. I wanted you back.
I buried my face to hid my tears, to hid my sadness, to hid my heart from breaking.
I can still smell you on my sheets. I can still feel your arms around me.
Holding me while you were sleeping.
I loved it so much.
I wanted it so much.
I really can't put it in words, how much I really needed you, but I know you knew.

Slipping through my fingers all the time.