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Rachel Roxxane Caroline A girl/Woman. A student. A dancer. A singer. An artist.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Mas Que Nada, that's our Samba song, been practicing and practicing, and we're still at 1.11s, seriously, I kinda think my Dec holidays will be totally packed.
Rahcel is totally thinking of pole dancing now, besides taking up fencing, which Mui Mui still say it's expensive.

Rachel's Schedule for this coming week:

Monday: Go school, do project.
Tues: Exam then go swim with Sha, then do project.
Wed: School, dance, swim in the evening with Xq.
Thurs: Exam, jogging, discuss project.
Fri: School(?), pubbing, go home stone and sleep.
Sat: Church, and out?
Sun: Dance, dance dance~

YAY, i completed my schedule for this week. :))

Saturday, November 28, 2009

The day you broke my heart.

I saw a girl today, she was wearing a light blue spaghetti top and white shorts.
She was walking, slowly, in the rain, she was not in a hurry, she walked.
Walking, listening to her Mp3, her waterproof sling bag getting drenched.
Dirt, kicked up behind her, landed on her thighs, her slippers, slipping off.
Raindrops, shielding her sight, as it splattered on the glass panels.
Yet, she kept walking.
She walked without her mind, without her heart, without her soul.
I guess, those who were looking at her, thought she might be mad.
Some call her crazy.
But she just walked along, not caring what others said, not caring if lightning struck.
When she reached home, she turned on her air-con, with the rain outside her room.
She peeled of her soaked top, revealing her checked bra.
She pulled her translucent pants, which stuck to her thighs, flashing her black underwear.
Her heart-shaped towel, covering up her shivering body.
She shoved herself under the comforts of her blanket.
She cried herself to sleep.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Yesterday was awesome!
School as usual, Sha was helping me play my Mafia, we later went to Bishan Stadium, did some running, helping her to help me.

Suppose to meet Muu Muu, but then went out with Sha, we watch Case 39, ohmygawd! Sick creepy, it's like, Exorcist with Ring, Constantine, so it's kind of expected in a way, but damn, it's still creepy, we went running around orchard road and cam whored till 0000. Sha's father came to pick us up and damn, slept and woke about 3 hours ago, gosh, I kinda not have the mood to type already. Maybe i'll edit this post later, we'll see though. Maybe.


Halo lyrics
Songwriters: Bogart, Evan Kidd; Knowles, Beyonce Gisselle; Tedder, Ryan Benjamin;

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Monday, November 23, 2009

Me-Nipearls Anyone?

In the studio now, with Ezt on my right, Ryan on my left and gay people dancing in front of me, what more could I ask for? Actually, it's only one gay guy, and I think he's attach, even they have partners, back to my sad single life. Yay me!

Ezt: THAT'S WHY!. sad sia. he reminds me of Sr. haha. i hope Rachel does this everyday XD
back to Rachel. or maybe Ryan. wtv floats their rootbeers ;)

Ryan: Doh..... -.-lll *I think both mad already*

Rachel: Why are you guys suddenly spamming my blog, this is v exclusive you know!

Ryan: i think im at the wrong place at the wrong time...

Ezt: HAHA!. thats all he had to type -_-" and Rachel loooves me-nipearls!. XD

Rachel: Only at Kembagang Sweetie's, you can have ME-NIPPLES! [mini pearls]


Ryan: ok..now i know.

actually the focus is on the blue shirt guy, sexxxa!
Like sally :))))

These are the awesome peeps with me now!
I love youuuu!!!! <3 everywhere!

kiss kiss kiss
hug hug hug

Friday, November 20, 2009

Happy Birthday To Me! <3

Happy Birthday to me, yesterday.

Our performance was the BOMB! Even after I told everyone to come at 1.30, latest, they still can jalan jalan, walk in slowly, like there's plenty of time. I was seriously pissing off because the photoshoot was going to start soon and no one was ready yet, especially the girls! Anyways, I almost fell 2 times cause the floor was seriously slippery. The guys in the front row was, obviously being like all guys, all those guys stuff they do, ugg, There was a lats photoshoot, with everyone who performed. We saw Mr Faris! He the bomb! Awesome teacher! He was so suprise cause he didn't know we were in dance.
I gave the cheena woman, taadaaa, watson's 5 for 1.95 pink shaver, plus a juicyly sexxa laced hot pink G-STRING! I just told her some guy wanted me to pass it to her, and she believed it. Those who know, you keep your mouth shut ah!

Pris brought all of us to a turkish restaurant at Haji lane, though the portions were really mini-riffic small, it's really yum yum! The dessert, wow, Baklava! At 8.50, it simply melted in my mouth gorgeous, we later went to Raffles hospital to do, toilet business, then wandered the streets again, cause really, it still was sooo early! We went to this other cafe, ordered Vanilla Shisha and Kunefe. Jo and Pris really was so wonderful, they bought me, the lovely constume top that i wanted completed with the skirt! And also, a beautiful tiramisu cake! I swear I love them to death, and the best, was the uber cute 6 pairs of animal earrings from DIVA, my heart really soared! We left around 10 ish, going to Raffles place to walk around, took some pics of the X mas tree and took the Mrt back, saw this girl with really fat fat thighs, damn, she's proud of it.

Went to school on my birthday, woke up late, very tired and stoned, checked my hp and thank goodness not so many messages, else i will be deleting all my other favourite texts.
Sha, Dan, Kuntrak and Drama Queen celebrated a mini birthday for me, so sweet, the cake also! :)
Sha and me went for lunch then for a movie, but beofre that we saw JW, WQ, and Ben, thought they going arcade? Lame sei, we watch, A Christmas Carol, really nice though, :) Sha gave me an adorable smiley flower, so sweet! Suppose to meet Stacey and Steph, but wasn't feeling so well, went home to sleep.

I love my birthday, though, I wished I could celebrate it with you.

Thank you guys so much! <3

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


Performance today! I am so hyped!
Yesterday, we had our rerhearsal at McPherson, it wasn't really good, but still we had the last practice at Jo's studio, some idoit have to go back early cause of her CCA, she completely lied about Jo saying that it's ok for her to go to her CCA, seriously, our performance is today and you still act like so fuck, you think you're so good is it?
I really hope that today's performance is close to perfect, if not, perfect!
We, meaning the Fantastic 4, put 2 months of hardwork, blood, sweat into it, okay, exxageratinh, no blood, but still, that's how hard we worked our ass, and legs off.

I really have nothing else to say. Just, keep my heart from jumping out and commiting suicide.

Today's the day, DO OR DIE!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Days passed by too fast.

Can it really be monday already? I haven't been so gung ho about this little spa I sink my thoughts into for quite awhile.

12th November 2009
Didn't go school, I can't really remember.

13th November 2009
I went to the salon to cut and dye my hair, yes, Rachel now has a cute side fringe and her head is a beautiful shade of brownish red. Went to Jo's studio for dance in the evening, Ezt did a practical joke on almost everyone, cause it's Friday the 13th, yet again, she had some 'goodie bag' also, filled with funny things and sweets, and Fiq was like, 'Why the hole so tight?' Sound so wrong man, what was worst was when he said it felt warm and slimy!
Ahahahaha! We wanted to take the HairyLegs bra and leave it in Aza's bag but then she didn't bring her extra bra, but then I think Ezt did something to her?
We left a mini pad in Sally's bag and he was F shock! We also took Aza's shoe and put the pad in his foolscape, I swear it's bloody funny. I stayed over at Jo's place also. She's seriously terrific!

14 November 2009
My brother went Australia today, he texted me this message: Bye Sis, take care, Love you :)
Omfg, so sweet lah, oh, he had a tattoo by the way, I think he did it 2 weeks ago? It's our surname. Stayed at Jo's place again, along with Fiq, we made some kind of chocolate biscuit thingy for Sunday's class at like 1am, and webwhore with Ezt like Fuck, hahha!
We watched Scary Movie 2, seriously crappy funny!

15 November 2009
Woke up at 12pm, I was really sick shit for 2 weeks cause of an impending sore thraot which affected my breathing, Fuck Fuck! Got to stock up on my meds and cash. Jo's maid is damn funny, cause she can't speak english then she ask me if Jo took the motorbike or car to the studio in malay, and I was like, damn, Jo can't even drive or what, and the bike is her dad's, I was lmfao like hell!

16 November 2009
Ryan went off to Australia this morning at 1am, was texting him from 11 to 12, talking about the farms he's going to visit and about cows. He's such a sweet guy! He's in my Waltz class and he's really good. Had Sw today, played Captain's Ball, Elaine was like really distractingly funny, with her screaming here and there. Nina fainted in class today cause her blood pressure too high, and class ended early, but me, Sha, Dan, Kuntrak, Yan and Fiq went to ACM today, supposedly for our LPD project, end up taking lotsa pics and getting distracted. Anyway, enough of me writing, I am tired out. I still miss him so much, really, I can't be fully happy, knowing that I can't celebrate my birthday with you.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Roll all the credits

I have seriously not be anally blogging about almost lots of shit that has been going through my mind lately. It's just that, nowadays, I try not to think so much, but sometimes, things that you don't want to think of, creeps into your mind, like fog, creeping around the harbor.

I'll try my best to kind of remember the updates.

Friday, 7th Nov 2009:
No school, so, chillax and went for dance until 2am, cause Aza was busy mixing the songs. Stupid Bitch wore this fuckUp angel outfit, you know those kind of Bohemian headbands? Well, she wore it around her forehead, with a pink bubble dress, black knee-length tights, blue and black stripped socks, all completed with a juicy red converse shoes. Seriously, what the fuck does she think she is? We went spize later for dinner, pics uploaded on Pris Fb, Awesome peeps! During the hours of 0000 to 0200, I learned the complete jive steps, like, what took those cheenas 3 weeks, to learn, I learn in 2 hours. Cute. Pris send us all back home and I completely shagged out.

Saturday, 8th Nov 2009:
Woke up at 7am for a wedding at St Teresa, I am actually amaze that I can put on contacts after such a short sleep period. Went to Sentosa with my babe, didn't really take lotsa pictures, but met this awesome couple, the guy reminds me of some writer from the papers, hmm, anyways, they are so loving, 15 years together, awww, haha, when we went back, around late late afternoon, met Zul along the way, he was meeting the guys for dinner. Went back home to sleep. Seriously shagged out!

Sunday, 9th  Nov 2009:
I woke up really late, met Ezz babe and went off to Jo's studio for Waltz, made a new friend, Ryan, cute kid, those really sensitive, gentle boy, haha, went back around 6 ish, had dinner and watch Devil Wears Prada and Singing In The Rain, makes me feel like taking up tap dancing classes!

Monday, 10th Nov 2009:
Didn't go Sw, seriously, no point going, go there at 8am, play the same games, over and over again, so I came to class about 945am, it started at about 1015am, ended in half an hour. Went home to watch cartoons and sleep. Why do I even bother to go school?
Went to dance, Sylvest and Ryan was there, apparently stupid Aza was still sleeping, but poor thing, he spent the previous day doing the songs.

Went to school at 10am, now the bloody schedule change, I am damn fucking pissed off.
Mr B went to his dental appointment today so no chance of seeing him in class. I am heaving a seriously bad headache now and it's because I am so stress out about dance tomorrow. I think, arg, I'll just lay here and die.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Facebook is so global now that I just can't seem to get in tune with all the updates tha has been going on and on and on. I mean seriously, live feed=300+, my screen is so full of crap nonsense that I don't bother to read, yet, seeing that large number next to my news feed is somewhat irritating me.

I only just went offline at around 1 in the morning, and how can my live feed be 300+ again, now? It's seriously starting to bug me. That's what the mother doesn't understand.
'I just go online, clear my office work, see the attachments send by your auntie, simple!'
She said with a smirk. This was coming from someone who still does not know how to do Ms 7 and other stuff.

'It's part of my life there! My friends now keep asking why now I am not active on Facebook anymore.'

She just walked off.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Lazy hazy days.
It's been raining dogs cats and my ankle doesn't make things better apparently.
I have been so bloody tired and my brain hasn't fully adjusted to the school terms yet.
Tomorrow's another practice session before doing a full dress rehearsal next Wednesday in school. I am so stress cause some idiot[ss] can't bloody remember the steps.
HELLO! You girls learn how long already????
Why on this beautiful face of the earth you still can't remember??!
Do you know how frustrating it is that the performance date is sooooo near, and yet you bloody hell dilly dally dilly dally, you think what? You so good is it?
You girls are fuck tarts!
I am getting old and crabby
I think it comes with age.

I can't wait to go out with my babe this sat! Yay! Gonna get black black!
Damn, I miss you!

Monday, November 2, 2009

4 more practice sessions for latin dance and I didn't go school today cause I had gastric in the morning and there is something wrong with my ankle.
Mum bought me an ankle guard so I guess I will be trotting around school with it, well, with my beautiful red slippers.
I keep having this weird feeling something is going to happen to me before my performance.
Call me paranoid but this shit out to be studied.
They should totally invent something which can take away this fear.
Perhaps I am mad?
I have been sick these couple of days, period's not making it better apparently.
My birthday is coming and I feel too old.
Yay, all my friends are getting old.
Soon I will be looking back in my old rocking chair and saying,
'How I miss the Good Old Days, you know ah, last time ice cream use to be 1 dollar, now so expensive.'

I am such a Spaz.