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Rachel Roxxane Caroline A girl/Woman. A student. A dancer. A singer. An artist.

Friday, October 29, 2010

And the thing is...

I guess you can feel upset.
But I just really don't know how to reply you anymore.
You really have to get over your anal 'overthinking'.
You have to.
I know it'l be difficult, but the next time you want to overthink again, stop.
Think twice before you overthink.

Have you ever heard of 'Forgive and Forget'?
I know I am doing that.
Are you?
What makes you think that I will hold on to a grudge to you?

Yes, even though I still hold onto grudges to others, I have my own reasons.
I am not holding one against you, but you are giving me a reason to ya' know.

Don't be paranoid.
Be happy.


Hahaa, reminds me of the time I always go clean the school whiteboard.


Saturday, October 23, 2010

Regret, Love, and Insomnia

How many times have I done something, or said something, 
then I immediately regret it.

Then when you kiss and make up,
I'll feel like this.

 But now, mostly I am still feeling like shit.
Thinking of you.
And you.
Cause my thoughts are fucking my brains.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Help me to help you.

There is so many things on my mind, I just don't know what to say.
Let's start with me first.
I am really tired, and tired, tired and sick of your behavior.
I really am.
You DO know what I am talking about.
You not opening your mouth to ask.
You being so DRAMA.[ You exaggerate a situation, making it seem bigger than it always is]
You being so sensitive.[Crying easily]
You, you, you..ect...
I know I have alot of patience, but it's wearing off.
I can't bring myself to read your blog and tumblr nowadays, cause I know the problems you have you won't tell me face to face.
And you know that I keep telling you to 'don't keep inside, whatever you wanna say just say, be it good or bad, at least just say'
Cause you see what happens when you don't say and keep it for much later?
Like yesterday?
Me arguing on the phone with you.

After knowing from Nina, my thinking changed.
You did that cause you couldn't help yourself.
I read up on your problem, and I realised that what you had been doing,
was mostly because of that problem.

Now I wished you had told me much earlier, so that I would know how to handle it.
My Dad suffered depression. 6 years.
That feeling was horrible.
And now my closest friend, you, suffering from it.

I wished I could help, but the best thing I can offer to you, is my listening ear.

I'll be there for you.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


All I want to do is sit and watch a Spongebob marathon with a bucket of small loves.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Be You

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


I hope you will read this, because these are things which I want you to believe.

Chances to me now, are like sacrifices, am I am willing to take them.

Therefore, I cannot let you go.
Yes you, and NO ONE else.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Last day of holidays.

Heyy... Goodness, how long have I not been updating my blog?
Haha, it's also not like many people reads it anyways.
I guess dreams come true, in a way.
Last week, I dreamt that Stacey's maidm Mimi, left for good.
And TODAY, I found out that it really happened!
WTFH right??!!!


Anyways, when I board up the bus, can't remember when, there's this guy, he literally looks like a human fish ball, blown up, and I swear, he reeked of powder, super duper sweet. Totally suit his skin and face which looks like one of those super old Hindustani movies where the guys are like WHITE.

Baby's not coming out today, tomorrow or Sunday.
Sad.. Sad..
Well, I'm going to watch DINNER FOR SCHMUcKS(?) tomorrow, which is kinda today, later.

Mimics*What makes you think I'm an Idiot?*
              *Just stay in the chair*

Thursday, October 7, 2010

1 Year, and a half month.

Isn't it amazing?
Isn't is wonderfully awesome?
I think it is though.
Throughout this 1 and a half year, 
 I have spent my time with the most wonderfullest person in this entire world.
He is the most sweetest,
the most caring,
the most lovable,
my boyfriend.

Being with someone like me for 18 months, 
it just says alot.
 It's really hard telling you how much celebrating it means to me.
I guess every special memories are just best lived by.

I love you so much.
Even though we fight, we quarrel,
I still need and want to know you are alright, 
you are okay,
because you are thinking of the same thing too.
Because I still love you.
No matter what.



Tuesday, October 5, 2010


I swear I'll never work as a mascot!

If ever.

If ever you asked me, how much do I love you,
I'll say,

"Each day I love you more,
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow"


Friday, October 1, 2010